I think I have a bit. Last night I was fueled by raging PMS and lingering anger over my lack of child support and I wrote a bitchy, mean post about Big Daddy.
But I'm not going to pull it.
As immature and vitriolic as it is, I'm going to let it stand. It's how I feel. My emotions may be screwier than a 2 year old who skipped their nap and took a few nips off of Mommy's Red Bull, but dammit, they are real.
I think it's wrong that a man can owe his ex-wife so much money and just blithely go about his life, acting like he's Da Man and everything is hunky dory. It's wrong that his kids, who are wonderful, smart and good people, are going without just because their dad decided to call it quits. There are sports they'd like to play, camps they'd love to attend, activities they want to be involved in, but can't, because they have a mom who is doing all she can just to keep a roof over their heads and food in the fridge. Yeah, there are scholarships and hardship things out there, but come on. Those are for kids who have two poor parents, or one poor/one absent/deceased. My kids should be able to do some of these things and have them paid for by their parents. Especially when there's one parent who has some extra silver jingling around in his pockets.
I'm not naive, I know that divorce is rarely pleasant and almost never fair. But I think that, after the dust settles, it's not ok for one person to be sitting in a house with a pool, watching cable on a 50" flat screen t.v. with a cold beer in his hand and the other person basically homeless, penniless and raising their four kids with little more than the skin of her teeth and the help of some amazing family and friends.
When Big Daddy's Titanic started sinking, he ran straight for the lifeboats. And didn't look back to see how anyone else (aside from his partner in crime) was faring.
I think what's been done, and what continues to be done, is a reprehensible, ugly thing.
And I'm going to write about it, because at this point, that's all I can do.
Thank you for hanging in there with me while I sort out my crazies. I have a funny post brewing about facebook, romance and where I decided to draw the line about what I can and cannot take in a relationship.
Stay tuned ♥